Facing Tough Times
With the blessing of a beautiful baby in my life also comes a lot of heart ache. When my darling little Sophie was just two weeks old, my husband informed me that he was no longer in love with me and that he was extremely unhappy and that he felt nothing for Sophie when she was born. Never in a million years did I think this could happen. I thought the good times and love was still going on, but he has made his choice to walk away. I am heart broken, surprised, humiliated and afraid, but every time I look at my little girl I remember that I have to be strong. She deserves to have a happy mommy and she is now depending on me, so I don't have time to feel bad, to wallow in grief or to have the break down I deserve. I am a mom. I am filled with hope for our future, she is the greatest joy in my life and I know that together we will find happiness. As for Brandon, I hope he finds what he is looking for, although I think he is giving away the best things in his life and the only things that lead to true joy and happiness. To sweet Adrianne, you have the kindest and most giving heart and I am so sad that we won't be sisters anymore! I am so lucky to have so many supportive friends and family members that have rallied around to help. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. I am determined that Sophie will feel only love and joy and never know what happened when she came home to a once loving home, now destroyed. It is just the two of us, and although I don't know what we are going to do, I know we will be just fine.
