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Falling Behind

My computer is not currently hooked up to the net right now, so I promise to have a thousand adorable pictures of Sophie shortly! I will also be starting a new blog for our new (slightly smaller family) considering we are no longer the Segura family. So for all of you who want to follow me and Sophie through our life adventure, I will have a new address for you shortly. We are surviving and adjusting to our new life. Thank you so much for all the support we have been getting from everyone. It is hard, but when you have such a beautiful baby girl to gaze at each morning who could stay sad for long. We are currently living with my mom and dad, but are looking for a home of our own. I got a job at BYUI as part time faculty in their dance department. Sophie has grown to 11 pounds and is 23 inches long. At two months she is already outgrowing her 3 to 6 month clothes! Who would have guessed that little old me could create a tall blonde beauty! Things are looking up and getting easier with each passing day. With all the horrible things that have happend to us lately, we are still very blessed and are being watched over and loved by many!

Joys/Hardships

Some of the joys in my life!


Bonding with baby Sophie. Holding my baby, feeding her or rocking her all hours of the day and night. Nothing could be so wonderful as holding that precious little girl.Seeing Sophie with my mom!

Seeing Sophie notice the world! She is starting to coo and discover her voice, her eyes are more alert and she is awake for more hours of the day. It is amazing to watch her develop and grow.

The possibility of moving closer to family. Although I am not in an ideal situation, I need to make the best of it for Sophie. I need to be strong and positive. If we move closer to my family, I will have some much needed support and Sophie will have a lot of loving cousins to grow up with.

Things that are still hard.
I miss Monday nights with my husband, we would always have a fun dinner and watch 24. I miss having someone there at night, when I hear a sound or had a bad dream, I could reach over and he would be next to me. I miss having my phone call person, someone to call throughout the day to tell my stories to or for no good reason at all.

May 14th is my four year wedding anniversary. I think it will be a hard day. How do you stop loving someone? I am trying to figure that out. Each day gets a little better, I have breakdowns and bad moments, but all the joys with Sophie get me through to the next day. My family has been wonderful, I do not know what I would do without my mom and dad. So here is to four years that did not end as I had dreamed, but they gave me the most beautiful gift and the greatest joy in the world, Sophie!

Hard Times

Facing Tough Times

With the blessing of a beautiful baby in my life also comes a lot of heart ache. When my darling little Sophie was just two weeks old, my husband informed me that he was no longer in love with me and that he was extremely unhappy and that he felt nothing for Sophie when she was born. Never in a million years did I think this could happen. I thought the good times and love was still going on, but he has made his choice to walk away. I am heart broken, surprised, humiliated and afraid, but every time I look at my little girl I remember that I have to be strong. She deserves to have a happy mommy and she is now depending on me, so I don't have time to feel bad, to wallow in grief or to have the break down I deserve. I am a mom. I am filled with hope for our future, she is the greatest joy in my life and I know that together we will find happiness. As for Brandon, I hope he finds what he is looking for, although I think he is giving away the best things in his life and the only things that lead to true joy and happiness. To sweet Adrianne, you have the kindest and most giving heart and I am so sad that we won't be sisters anymore! I am so lucky to have so many supportive friends and family members that have rallied around to help. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. I am determined that Sophie will feel only love and joy and never know what happened when she came home to a once loving home, now destroyed. It is just the two of us, and although I don't know what we are going to do, I know we will be just fine.

Lots of Easter Pics

Such a precious gift on a precious holiday.
We had a mix of family over for Easter dinner. I have to admit I felt overwhelmed and over-protective having so many people around baby all at once. It was the first time we had more than two or three people over. But it all worked out fine, and turned out to be a nice day. I was sure thankful to have my mom here, and I cried like a baby when she drove away!

Sophie with my nephew Dylan - the greatest kid ever!

Sophie looking at Uncle Dom.

Sophie with Grandma Dana - we both really miss her!

Sophie with Grandma Barb.

Sophie meeting Aunt Angie for the first time.

Her adorable Easter outfit. Dry clean only - and yes she had a major poop in it! That's what I get for putting a baby in silk.

Loving mommy!

Labor of Love

Sophie Lee Segura born April 6th 2009!
This beautiful girl has finally arrived.

A labor of love!
My water broke at 3 am on April 5th. I was not sure quite what was happening, but water was gushing everywhere. I was not having strong contractions, but thought this was a clear sign. We arrived at the hospital at about 4:30 am, I was not yet dialated even a little. But, the nurse said that having your water break is a golden ticket to get a room at the hospital.
We got checked in and my parents arrived, luckily they were in town. They started me on some oral medicine that began my contractions, and they started coming fast. I was sure the baby was only a few hours away. Even with strong contractions I was not dialating, so they put me on Pitosin. My contractions continued without results for the next 24 hours. By 4:00 am on April 6th I had reached my exhaustion level, physically and emotionally. I could not dialate past a 3, so they fianlly decided on a C-section.
My whole body was shaking with nerves. My parents made it to the hospital in the nick of time before I entered the OR. I really needed to see my moms face at that moment. I went into the room with Brandon holding my hands and the baby arrived about 20 minutes later at 5:50 am.
I was heavily drugged, but I could hear her cry and hear the doctors comment in shock and amazement at how big this girl was. She was 8 pounds and 10 1/2 ounces.
I have never loved anything more in my life. She is perfect.
Both mom and baby are slowly but surely healing.

New Baby Bump Shots

38 Weeks Pregnant! I can't believe how much she has grown! I keep asking the doctor if this is normal. He's not concerned so I will just have to wait. I look like I am hiding a huge basketball under my shirt.

We just thought it would be funny to see if I could still do the splits - and maybe we were hoping that it would hurry the process along!

Her little princess room is ready and waiting. I go in there several times a day to check things over and dream. I should have saved some of the washing and decorating for now because I am going stir-crazy with nothing to do!

15 days until the due date! I am beyond excited to meet her. I would much rather hold my baby than wear her!